life in general

i have been really awful at this blog thing...

work has been nuts (you think i'd be used to it by now), and my personal life isn't much better.

where to start with work? we're losing a hygienist, she's getting married and moving back home to connecticut. this really bums me out because she's really passionate about her job (like me) so we see eye to eye on lots of patient care issues. there's still another hygienist, who is absolutely wonderful-so sweet, but she comes across like she's there for the money and that's that. who knows, maybe when i've been in practice 10 years i'll be the same way, but hopefully not. so now we have to deal with rearranging the schedule and hiring a new hygienist, which isn't the most fun thing ever. you spend so much time at work, your coworkers can become a second family, it's scary when you have to introduce someone new. then again, maybe we do need a breath of fresh air...

at home, i find myself fighting with trust issues and i'm not sure how i'll ever get over them. what do you do when the one person in the whole world who can break your heart, does? things with us now are better than they've ever been, i think. i get these sneaking suspicions like there's something going on i just don't know about, but how can i confront him when he's done nothing wrong? he's been home early almost every night, inviting me to the restaurant and i've met most of his friends, but i do think there's something to be said for a woman's intuition.

also, i'm boycotting mondays.

what an update. i'm worse at this blogging thing than i thought :X

baptiste power yoga

so i've finally started to go to a hot yoga class and i made a conscious decision to try baptsite power yoga before bikram. i went to my first class yesterday with my friend danielle and i'm suprised to say i actually like it! no, love it!!! i love the flow, there's no strict rigidity to the poses, you're encouraged to go at your own pace and modify the postures as you need to. this morning was only my second class, but i'm excited to see where i go with this from here. i really want to buy a yogitoes but i'm pacing myself. 

on another note, happy valentine's day! even though i despise this holiday (why do you need ONE, DESIGNATED day to be nice and lovey dovey? you should do nice, lovey dovey things every day because you want to) bobby bean left me a suprise when he was sneaking out to work this morning, which was very unexpected. 

i'll spend the rest of my valentine's day cleaning my apartment. maybe i'll swing by bonfire after the v-day deuces are out of the way...

james morrison is the new love of my life

there's so much craziness, surrounding me 
there's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe 
when all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me 
you make it real for me 

when I'm not sure of, my priorities 
when I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be 
like holy water, washing over me 
you make it real for me 

and I'm running to you baby 
you are the only one who saved me 
that's why I've been missing you lately 
cause you make it real for me 

when my head is strong, but my heart is weak 
i'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty 
when i can't find the words, you teach my heart to speak 
you make it real for me

and I'm running to you baby 
cause you are the only one who saved me 
that's why I've been missing you lately 
cause you make it real for me 

....'nuff said. why can't someone write me a beautiful, cheesy love song ballad?! 

chef widows

so i know i'm an awful blogger, but i think it's because i spend more time reading blogs than writing my own. i especially love the chef wife ones. i was reading one from chef's widow, here's a little diddy from her first post... 

"We moved in, got unpacked, and I began my new life as a Chef’s Widow. What is a Chef’s Widow, you ask? I recently was called a CW by the GM at my hubs restaurant, Parea (in Gramercy). I believe that the definition is as followed: A woman married to man who is also married to the kitchen. Quite simply I married my best friend, my love, and by far the most fabulous man I have ever met. In trade for this perfect man I live the life of a widow. I see him after midnight and before 9am. He gets one day off a week, sometimes…It is worth it though, I eat like a queen and when we do have a minute together, it always seems brand new. We fight, but we don’t really have time, so we make up quickly. I never get bored of him, because I rarely see him. It is one of those situations that works. I think if he had a 9-5′er I would kill him, seriously, I would."

i am so grateful that there are women like chef's widow that blog. it's amazing how comforting it can be when you're able to get that sense of validation that your relationship is normal and you are NOT alone. this morning my chefboyfriend told me his tournant and his girlfriend are fighting about the long hours he works, how he's never home, you ladies know the drill. things in any relationship get hard, i guess you just have to pick what you can deal with and either suck it up for yourself and be supportive or decide to move on and away from the situation. choose your battles, be confident and happy with your decision, no matter what it is, and somehow you'll get through it. we may have a new chefgirlfriend joining us in the very near future. 

time flies...

it's amazing to think that we're all ready half way through january. i have been so stressed out and busy that the time is escaping me without my even realizing it. my childhood friend is getting married this weekend, and this has been a long time coming, but i can't believe it's finally here. it's freaking me out that my friends are starting to get engaged and shiz. i'm starting to realize this may be the rest of my life...and i've got a lot more fun stuff i want to do! i have to get moving...

the chef and i are going to nyc next weekend, i guess we're going to the libertine and to tailor, it will be interesting, that's for sure. i like trying new things, but it's like i get this mental road block sometimes. once i know what something is sometimes i just can't eat and appreciate it. this is one of my new years resolutions, actually. last week bobby made calves brains and i tried it but i just couldn't get into it because i was so freaked out about the brain part. i wanted to see a broadway show while we are there but i'm not sure how that's all going to work out. 

speaking of the chef, he just walked in...

vino awaits. 

new years eve

i have to say that i have never had a terribly exciting new years eve, maybe that's why i just don't get excited about it. i'm filling my day with the gym, grocery shopping and lifetime movies and a probable trip to sit at the bonfire bar. 

hope your new year is happy :) 

love, 

alanna

ginger-vitis

a note about my chef...

this mug was nominated to be in an issue of stuff @ night magazine as an eligible bachelor. i am happy to report he turned it down, because, as he put it to me, he knows i'd "chop his balls off" what is with boston's obsession with chefs, anyway? bobby nominated ian, his sous chef, so keep your eyes peeled for him in the february issue.

note the apron around his neck, this is his best GQ. eligible bachelor? i think not. 

i'm an awful blogger part two

as promised, part two!  i guess the server was busy before so i couldn't add these beauties. here are some pics of our new office, obviously still under construction...

when you're walking with a pt this hallway feels like it's 5 miles long

this is our new hands-free sterilization area, it's pretty cool. there's all little foot pedals to opens the doors and to get the sink going. you start on the left side by putting instruments in the ultrasonic and then bagging & storing them up top until the autoclave tray is full. once out of the autoclave, on the right, they get stored until we put them away. 

my new sink!/velscope

my work station...

my little hygiene nook! isn't it cute!? at first i thought there was no way i'd fit myself in here with a patient but it's been great. def a smaller space but now i can perio chart without having to get up and punch it into the computer when the pt leaves. i'll post more pics when it's painted. 

i can't wait until it's all finished, the contractors said when we got back from break everything would be painted, we'll see about that. 

i'm an awful blogger

so i haven't blogged in awhile because like & work has been absolutely crazy. i'll start with the move. here's some pics of our old office packed up and ready to go. i didn't think that i'd get sad leaving this spot, but when the last of the boxes was moved, i got a little misty eyed. we had the best view of the green monster, you can almost see it in this first picture but the sun is too bright...and that yucka spot on the floor is from the chair that was there...

   the front office, the old laser

since i'm having trouble uploading other pics, maybe i'll continue this post in another blog.